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Susan
Lit reviews are actually devil-spawned tasks designed to punish students for their sins, true or false?

(I swear, the lit review is what actually gave me the damn anxiety attacks in the first place and now I've been working on this on chapter for best part of two months and it is still fighting back.)
 
 
I'm not cynical, I'm: aggravatedFought fake aliens. They won.
 
 
 
Susan
(I know, I know it was supposed to be handed into my supervisor by now so I'd have time to edit it. I'm getting there!)

and I am having SUCH Petshop of Horrors feels, guys, you don't even know. I am so looking forward to this Nano when I can fallow in atrocious fandom feels.

... Does anyone even remember that manga except for me?
 
 
 
Susan
28 October 2014 @ 08:33 pm
I hereby announce that if I do not reach 11,669 words each week for the duration of NaNoWriMo, [personal profile] renay is going to assign me a godawful book to read as a penalty. If I do not reach 50,000 words, she had the right to assign an ADDITIONAL book, and I am not allowed to whinge until I start reading it.

signed,
[personal profile] spindizzy
 
 
 
Susan
27 October 2014 @ 09:28 pm
I HAVE HIT TEN THOUSAND WORDS ON MY DISSERTATION I AM NOT A FAILURE AT EVERYTHING NOW THE GOAL IS TO ACTUALLY FINISH THE FUCKING THING BECAUSE I HAVE HIT THE GODDAMN WORD COUNT!
 
 
 
Susan
27 October 2014 @ 01:31 pm
  • My stationery has shipped! Soon, sooooooon, I will have delicious beautiful stationery to use for next year and/or lose and/or forget about between now and then!

  • I am about three hundred words away from the minimum word count on my dissertation! It's no where near done, and even when I've edited it up properly it will still be a pile of wank and "How do I data analysis" ([twitter.com profile] glempy is a lifesaver, pass it on.), but it will be something that I can hand in and that is more than I had. Literally all I need is a passing grade. That is it.

  • (If I hand it in, Lex is going to buy me a PS3 and that is going to be SO AWESOME. SO. MUCH AWESOME. Especially because I skipped a generation, so all of the PS3 games are now on the £20-£35 mark, which is about how much I used to pay for PS2 games, so is about as much as I would expect to pay?)

  • (VIDEO GAMES!)
 
 
 
Susan
26 October 2014 @ 05:54 pm
Ugh  
I am having all of the fun of carrying out data analysis without actually having a clear idea of what results I should be highlighting or why.

I've got a few ideas, I'm not COMPLETELY useless, but... Ugh.
 
 
 
Susan
25 October 2014 @ 10:36 pm
By which I mean I ordered myself stationery for next year! I have a couple of diaries for my fiction-writing project (... You knew about that, right? I try to write a snippet of story every day and the easiest way to be sure I did that is to write a diary! I'm doing a lot better with this one than I usually do, in that I am pretty much up to date!), and if they don't work out then it doesn't matter because they're undated six-month diaries. I've also ordered my Filofax inserts for next year! If they don't work out, I can swap them out with a spare set I've got, so I... Should be all right? It'll be fine.

(I know none of y'all care about stationery, but *I* care! It makes me happy!)
 
 
 
Susan
24 October 2014 @ 08:44 pm
On the one hand, I've never done Yuletide before and it will be interesting! One the other hand, I am bad at fic exchanges, and do I really want my first commitment after I escape my dissertation to be a gift for someone else?

(Ugh, I can't meet the deadline my supervisor set. I feel like shit, but equally if I can't meet the deadline then I can't meet the deadline! I am going to send him the two mostly-ready chapters I have, let him know that I'll get one to him by the end of the weekend, and will hopefully have the data analysis and the other two chapters done by Monday.)

(I feel that I should point out that I have actually been working on the damn thing, but this week has mostly been data entry from my surveys... And today I discovered that I'd actually done my data entry in the least efficient way possible! Fucking hell.)

ANYWAY. POINT IS. YULETIDE HAS AWESOME FANDOMS, DO I WANT TO DO THAT OR DO I WANT TO PINCH HIT LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER?
 
 
 
Susan
Right, as part of my dissertation I've been doing surveys on computer use in the libraries (I got like 120 responses! Ideally I'd need 200-250 to actually make my results valid, but over 100 means I can actually do shit! Fuck aye!), and there have been some REALLY NICE THINGS out of it!

Like, I asked people if they were aware of the volunteer service that the libraries offered, with a note at the bottom of the page telling people that if they were interested they should speak to a librarian - and I saw a couple of people fill in my survey, they go and ask librarians if they can volunteer!

And there have been lots of good, positive comments about the library in general! And a bit of "Oh hey, I didn't realise the library did these things, that's really cool!" And generally it has just given me the warm fuzzies.
 
 
 
Susan
21 October 2014 @ 11:28 pm
I've been doing data collection for my dissertation this week (I know, I know - I got like two extensions because I was busy having an anxiety-induced nervous breakdown the first couple of times, but I'm hopefully gonna get SOMETHING done? Except that my supervisor wants a draft in on Friday so no sleep for me. None at all.), and augh. It is dull. I spent most of the evening in an anxiety-fuelled haze, which was fun!

This evening was not so fun. Trigger warning: blood, drunks.Collapse ) And that was my night out. It sucked. I much preferred the part where I came home, caught the three endings of Clue and watched all of Hackers, even if I had to do data entry for my dissertation the whole time.

... I am kinda proud of how I handled that, because I am pretty sure that I'm not usually that assertive and I have never asked for a manager before.

(THIS IS WHY I HATE DRUNK PEOPLE. At this point, I am pretty much swearing off hanging out with people who are drunk off their asses unless I am needed to put people in the recovery position. ... I may have already sworn off this, I'm pretty sure that I flat out stopped hanging out with a friend of mine because his girlfriend liked getting people drunk and I do not have the fucks to give for people who stress me out that much.)

I am pretty much going to finish writing up more of my dissertation and then go the fuck to sleep. More data collection in the morning, whoop whoop! I have less depressing news (like IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY) but I do not have the care to write about it right now.