The trouble with blogging is that if you go away for sixth months, or the best part of two years, it feels like you should post something huge and dramatic when you get back - something with fireworks and explosions and cookies for all of the friends you haven't spoken to in so long.

... Well that's how I feel anyway.

I'm sorry that there's a distinct lack of fireworks! There should be, and possibly hugs because hugs are awesome.

(*stealth hugs*)

(Guys, more of you either need to get twitter or tell me what your usernames are so I can ambush you out of the blue. BACO I AM LOOKING AT YOU.)

I've moved in with Lex, gone full time at my office job of doom, graduated like a boss, seen my baby sister go to uni (she won't let me convince her to open an etsy store full of the stuff she knits, she's mean.), started a review blog, played in a lot of tabletop rpgs and got distracted from a lot of videogames. 2011 was an odd year that kicked me in the teeth a couple of times, but I am trying to make like this is a shojo anime and just do my best. S'all I can do, and all anyone can ask of me.

So, guys, how've all y'all been?

Guuuuuys! I am very behind on my diary of writing, could anyone give me a few first sentences? Cannot promise coherent or complete responses, but will try! (also if anyone wants to prompt for days to come, go for it.)

Days i need ideas for:

21st june
22nd june
23rd june
24th june
25th june
26th june
28th june
29th june
30th june
1st july
2nd july
3rd july
4th july
5th july
6th july
7th july
8th july
9th july
10th july
11th july
12th july

LOOK I SAID I WAS BEHIND. please help?

GUYS I AM BACK IN THE UK, I WILL HAVE INTERNET FROM THE 21ST AND I WILL POST HOW MY TRIP WENT WHEN I'VE SORTED PHOTOS.

Dear Marvel:

( SPOILERS! ) Apart from that, I enjoyed your film and how when the internet told me it was GAY AS BALLS and did not lie.

Also, I am informed that the guy playing Xavier ships it, ships it hard. And that one of the deleted scenes is him going "Oh, you want to see my powers - well, I can make you see the man to me in drag, is that a clue?" and I WANT IT PRECIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!"

But yeah, I - I want the fic of Raven and Charles growing up and being each others' keeper and HIJINKS. And GUYS ONE OF YOU POSTED A THING and the intro involved something along the lines of "In my head Erik just accepts that living with a telepath means that you can't keep a crush secret" and then there was fic and GUYS WHICH OF YOU WAS THIS? I CAN'T THINK OF WHO BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS halcyonjazz AND IT WASN'T SOB.

(Also I think I've figured out the problem with DW not cross-posting - I think if I don't login properly beforehand, it doesn't keep the crossposting setting of my account. Sigh.)

http://twitter.com/#!/search/realtime/%23bigglingalldaylong

If you wanna keep track of me and you don't have me on twitter, i'm updating with this tag for a while and this link should let you view things without the rest of... Well, me.

Going to Italy and Greece, BRB!

[ETA: hey guys, turns out crossosting was being fail again. Lots of posts incoming!]

Nay is not having awesome times, and I do not have real fic to cheer her up with because goddamn but I'm rusty. IN LEIU OF A REAL PRESENT, I AM GIVING HER DRAFTS OF FIC SO SHE CAN PICK THINGS FOR ME TO FINISH WHEN MY BRAIN WORKS AGAIN.

(No, it is not DTG. It will happen at some point I swear to God. I have a mix for DTG, I will be so pissed if I never get to post it and gloat about how I actually finished something longer than 5000 words.)

( FFVIII, Seifer and Zell, originally one of my drafts for the FFEX I defaulted on. )

I was watching Tiger&Bunny, and I realised a strange thing!

( Character spoilers for Phoenix Wright 3! )

Oh, hey guys - the crossposting was broken on my journal. Sorry for the spam!

And also GUYS MADOKA MAGICA WAS AWESOME AND WHY HAVE YOU NOT ALL WATCHED IT YET OH MY GOD I WAS FULL OF TEARS. ALL OF THEM. AND THAT IS ALL I CAN SAY RIGHT NOW. (OKAY, IF YOU YOU DON'T LIKE GRIMDARK THAT'S FAIR ENOUGH. BUT. WATCH IIIIIIIIT.)

Instead, have a meme.

Give me a character and I will tell you:
* How I FEEEEEL about this character
* All the people I ship romantically with this character
* My non-romantic OTP for this character
* My unpopular opinion about this character
* One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

I can't wait for when I graduate from uni, for when I move house, for when I can think about going back to Nottingham and not have to fix on SEEING LEX AGAIN to stop myself bursting into tears at the thought of going back.

I have so much stuff to do, no time to do it, and no desire to do any of it. When I'm in that house, I just sort of... Sit. I go on the internet. I can't tell you why, or what I'm doing there but I know I spend a lot of time staring vacantly at my laptop instead of doing anything else. Part of it's embarassment, I guess? Because I don't want the people around me to see what I enjoy and judge me for it. And part of it is just... NO ONE in that house does anything. It's like a ray of apathy shines up it and nerfs the willpower of all who enter. People play on the xbox. Everyone else sits around and watches or uses their laptops. NOTHING HAPPENS.

... Seriously, in that house I don't even have the goddamn energy to MAKE MYSELF A FUCKING SANDWICH most days. What the hell.

I think part of what's bothering me is... I used to have dreams! Things I wanted to do! Hobbies! And now... Now I sit on a sofa and do nothing and it irritates the fuck out of me. Going to try and just bull my way through the next few months. HEAD FIRST THROUGH PROBLEMS, YOU SAY. I CAN BUT TRY.