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Susan
15 November 2014 @ 10:55 pm
Like, that is pretty much all I did today. And played Folklore, because I nabbed the PS3 while my housemate was being Sleeping Beauty.

(For reals, he went for a nap, slept through his alarm, didn't respond to knocking or his phone... I just left him to it and played video games, it was awesome.)

Lex has gone to visit his family this weekend so I've not really seen him since I installed him on a train this morning. His grandma may or may not have dementia, so his mum wants him to see her while there's still something of her left to see. (That sounds really mean and spiteful, doesn't it? Oh god. This is not a new development, so I think they're both fairly calm/resigned about it, but it's still a bit "Well, fuck" and that is all I'm saying on the matter because Lex's family and I'm not sure how much he wants saying on a public forum.)

Apart from that, everything seems to be okay? I am failing at Nano because I've gone "NOVEMBER IS THE MONTH OF CATCHING UP ON ALL OF MY LIBRARY BOOKS" and I had to clear off all of the library books I already had out to make room for the forty-three volumes of manga I reserved.

... Yes, forty-three.

... Don't judge me.

(That works out to: up to around volume eighteen of One Piece; four volumes each of Vampire Knight, Shaman King, Claymore, Naruto, D.Gray-man, and Nana; eight volumes of Gestalt; and the first volumes of Case Closed, Tegami Bachi, and Pokémon Adventures. CATCHING UP ON WEEKLY SHONEN JUMP TRIGGERED SOMETHING TERRIBLE IN ME, I AM SO SORRY.)
 
 
 
Susan
12 November 2014 @ 05:25 pm
And I passed!

I got 62% on my dissertation, and an award with merit for my actual degree! I passed!

*sits in corner of pub crying and laughing*
 
 
 
Susan
03 November 2014 @ 06:42 am
DING DONG THE WITCH OF WITCHES IS DEAD AND MY DISSERTATION IS HANDED IN!

... Man I would have been so much more stoked about doing this of if christened it Walpurgisnacht before two minutes ago.

I keep checking the receipt just to be sure it's REALLY done and it's REALLY gone, because I can't believe it. I'm going to sleep now and hopefully it will still be real when I wake up.
 
 
 
Susan
02 November 2014 @ 05:25 pm
I don't actually know what I used to be excited about before the Autumn of Hell started! Clearly I'm just going to have to embed myself into all of the books and films and tv shows and video games and rediscover my own bloody interest.

GET YOUR RECOMMENDATIONS READY, is what I'm saying, BECAUSE TOMORROW THE GLORY BEGINS.

(P.S. I need to port some of my icons over from LJ because oh my god the six I have are not expressing my full flaily capslockness.)

(P.P.S. Guys I pretty much only have access to handheld consoles until next weekend at best, WHAT DO I WANNA PLAY? I think my options are varying flavours of Pokemon, handheld Final Fantasies, Harvest Moon, and Fire Emblem.)
 
 
 
Susan
02 November 2014 @ 01:21 am
  • Two pages of potentially Hakkai/Gojyo as lesbians in space!

  • Caught up on one week of my diary project!

  • TWO PAGES OF SECRET SQUIRRELS FOR [twitter.com profile] jilliferium!

  • Not actually writing, but I have finished the edits on half of the chapters for my dissertation! This is good and progress!
 
 
I'm not cynical, I'm: busybusy
 
 
 
Susan
01 November 2014 @ 03:24 am
FIRST DRAFT COMPLETE
FIRST DRAFT COMPLETE
FIRST DRAFT COMPLETE

NOW I JUST NEED TO EDIT THE WHOLE FUCKING THING BY MONDAY AND I CAN FINALLY REST!
 
 
I'm not cynical, I'm: jubilantjubilant
 
 
 
Susan
01 November 2014 @ 01:26 am
And I am sort of bouncing between writing words (woooooo fun things!) and trying to finish this lit review because I got nothing done today except for going to my final counseling appointment. I am actually looking forward to Nano! It is a real, concrete thing that I can have fun with and enjoy and it's started now! Yaaaay!

(I need to actually work out with Lex when I'm getting this PS3, I don't know if he's ordered it or what.)
 
 
 
Susan
31 October 2014 @ 01:52 am
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Susan
31 October 2014 @ 12:58 am
Having a social group made up almost entirely of people with mental health problems means never having to explain why you're in counselling.

... Oh yeah! Hey guys, I've been in counselling since like June, it's been great. Not actively suicidal anymore, not bursting into tears every single week, number of anxiety attacks is way down (see also: not crying every week), and I feel like I could maybe be a functioning human being if I put the effort in?

Like, my counselor says I'm putting the work in and I spent the entirety of the summer not doing anything stupid (... This is part of the reason I moved in with [twitter.com profile] captainraz and [twitter.com profile] splend. ... Did I mention that? That was a thing I did in July or August to make up for the fact that my housing situation was also contributing to me crying in corners and having anxiety attacks. Also I can't live on my own because spiders are a thing that exist.) and I think she might be trying to immersion therapy me re: complements so I don't freak out and die whenever someone says something nice about me.

I'm pretty sure my appointment tomorrow is going to be my last one, owing to me not officially being a student any more as of Monday. Oh shit, I'm not going to be a student any more as of Monday! What the fuck! ... No, focus. Counselling. It's going to be really weird not going anymore? Like, my appointments have been one every two weeks for the last month or so, but... Still a bit weird. I'm not sure if I have any particular feelings about this matter one way or the other.
 
 
 
Susan
30 October 2014 @ 08:59 pm
Until Death Do Us Part volume 4- Hiroshi Takashige and DOUBLE-S
  • I really wanted this volume to turn into Haruka forming a team of child crime-fighters and having adventures and it didn't happen. :(

  • I really like Kilo and ahhhhhhh Sierra has more backstory! But also Kilo's dramatic lighting makes me happy.

  • I ship Foxtrot and India. Um.

  • SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK WAS WITH JULIET'S ENTIRE SKINTONE CHANGING COLOUR THAT IS NOT HOW MAKE-UP WORKS.

  • I'm amused that this volume featured much less Mamoru than expected, but I am still okay.

  • GENDA THOUGH. GENDAAAAAAAAAA. I love Genda so much and my shipper heart is going "Yes, now show us the backstory kissing that must have happened why is there no backstory kissing."

  • OMG Wiseman actually respects Igawa and his skills, that hasn't happened before! I am okay with this because eeeeeeeeee! And also I am terrified of everything going wrong.


I feel like [personal profile] thebaconfat would quite like Sierra (she is a badass soldier type who does things like use sniper rifles while wearing a suit), but I'm not sure how the rest of the plot would work for you? It has a twelve-year old girl with precognition, a blind swordsman, a hip-hop hacker, the aforementioned badass in a suit, an entire network of victims of crime who've banded together into a vigilante organisation and military unit... And together they fight crime, the mafia, international terrorists, and literally more assassins than they have room to show. I love it a lot, and there is absolutely zero fic for it on AO3.

Dogs 1 - Shirow Miwa
  • Insufficient Naoto. That is all I have to say.