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Susan
05 December 2018 @ 06:43 pm
 Hello my darlings! I am INCREDIBLY tired! I have successfully managed to change my hours at work (essentially getting a new job, because it's a new contract that means I don't accrue leave but DO get university holidays off, so swings and roundabouts I guess.), which is nice because yay more money and working the same hours every day! Boo because now I have to get up at six in the morning, and I am SO TIRED. My hours start next week, but I'm trying to scale my sleep cycle back far enough that I can actually, y'know, be functional in the morning when my hours change. It suuuuuuuuuuuucks. But on the plus side, apparently mornings have a little less customer interaction but a little more jobs that you can just work through to fill your shift than the afternoon or evening shifts, so this could be really good for me and my anxiety? Plus: afternoons off!

[twitter.com profile] splend and I have finally finished Beyond: Two Souls, by which I mean we spent like four hours cursing Rabid Rage's name to hell and back for this racist nonsense that he put together where you can't NOT kiss the creepy white dude. Next up: Life is Strange! We're probably gonna have to think REALLY fast to agree on decisions there, but it's fine! We will figure something out. (We really just need to start making a list of media we're gonna blitz together, because we have a lot of fun doing that! ... Also it's Sam's turn to pick the movies because he was Not Happy during Resident Evil 6.)

Um... What else is going on with me? Not much, to be honest. I'm kinda gearing back up into an end-of-year frenzy of words and crafting, because I have A BUNCH of Christmas presents to make (How many? SO MANY.) and I started a little too late. But it's fine! It's fine! I am being sure to pace myself and drink lots of water and take breaks, it's fine. Plus I have a delivery of SAFETY EYES waiting for me at home when I get back, so that's going to be exciting! I've got as far as I could get in one project without them, so the timing's pretty great. And I'm replaying Bioshock Infinite, because apparently Elizabeth is the person I'm in the mood for. Maybe I will achieve my plan of going through it in the order that SEEMS to be correct for maximum surprises (Bioshock Infinite, Bioshock, Bioshock 2, Burial at Sea. BURIAL AT SEA IS THE ONE I'M EXCITED FOR, OKAY, BECAUSE ELIZABETH.) I think I'm getting the balance right of "Must hit this deadline aaaaaaaaah!" to breaks that mean I'm not cramming at the deadline, so... Progress?

On that topic, apparently my christmas present from my doctor was validation that I've made progress and I've come a long way, considering that back in... April? I was convinced that I was never going to get better and that my anxiety was all that I was ever going to be, and now I'm treating my anxiety and slowly figuring out who I am underneath it! It turns out that when I'm not self-sabotaging myself, I'm actually kinda confident? Still not always good at judging what I can get done in the time available to me, but better than I was before I started treatment. It's weird! And kinda cool! And I hope that the new Susan is someone cool as well, because I put a lot of effort into making her!

But yeah, I've got nothing. Christmas plans are still a bit up in the air and need some hardcore wrangling, and I still have a couple more presents that I need to make and/or buy, but... It's fine. It feels doable. (I'll report back in a week or so as to whether it actually WAS doable!) How are you all doing? Are you all okay?
 
 
Susan
03 December 2018 @ 02:38 pm
Bioshock Infinite // No one left behind
G | 200 words | Booker, Elizabeth | Technically spoilers for the mid-game | Written for the [community profile] drabble_zone prompt "What are you doing?" | Booker wasn't walking out of this one.

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28 November 2018 @ 07:46 pm
Uncharted // Too dumb to die
G | 200 words | Sully, Nate | Set pre-series but draws on events from Uncharted 3 | Written for the [community profile] drabble_zone prompt "silver" | If Nate wasn't sixteen and stupid, he wouldn't spend as much time nearly getting shot.

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Hey everyone! This was going to be two separate posts, and the one from October was going to go live, uh... In October... And then I kinda fell over at the end of the month and never finished it for ??? reasons ??? so here! Here are two separate round-ups of the last two months of my life mashed into one post! ... Literally, I am just copy-pasting them into one post because changing tenses is hard work and also I was apparently really excited about my birthday and it seemed mean to edit that out.

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I didn't live tweet this one because honestly I only got around to buying a copy of this when I started doing this watchalong with Sam. Sam tweeted it here and he's Very Disappointed.

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Sam and I are finishing off our Resident Evil movie marathon at long last! We're watching the last half of the series, and I'm excited because RE4 is terrible, RE5 is my favourite, and I have very few memories of RE6 except that the plot makes no sense, there's a helluva Gilligan cut, and also Ruby Rose. So half of this is going to be me going "Sam, Sam, stop tweeting and watch this bit!" and the other half is going to be whispering "I have no memory of this place!"

As ever, Sam's livetweet is here, and mine is here!

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Susan
06 November 2018 @ 06:09 pm
You ever see those twitter or tumblr posts, where it's just a very soothing gif and an invitation to sit and stop for a while? This is the text equivalent of one of those. This is your invitation to sit, not look at the news, and just take a breath if you need one.

If you need a distraction, I am here! Leave me a comment (anon is on, IP tracking is off or will be soon), and I promise a conversation that does not mention real life politics, or a ficbit if you leave me a prompt, or just a string of hugs if that is what you need today! (Feel free to ask questions and make requests! Like "What is the stupidest plan you had in an RPG" or "should I watch Guardian" or "Give me a random gif from your reaction folder" or "I have not got the brain to care about anything, please tell me a random fact" or "give me a recommendation" or "Forget it, ask ME something," or "I don't want to answer questions, but I need a space to dump my feelings, please be that space.")

If you want me to screen your comment, just say and I will. The important thing is that you remember to take a break today.
 
 
Susan
31 October 2018 @ 03:42 pm
I am SO RUSTY but look! Look! I wrote words! Words of fiction that I am actually showing to people instead of leaving in a file on 4tw and never looking at again! PROGRESS!

Castlevania //
G | 200 words | Alucard, Trevor Belmont, Sypha mentioned | Spoilers for the series, written for the [community profile] drabble_zone prompt "Cold." Mostly domestic fluff.

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Okay but the thing that's interesting as well is tracking the improvements in graphic UIs, because that's quite cool. It's really weird tracking over a decade in cinema through one franchise, okay!

I yelled on twitter here, and Sam yelled here!

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